This is...the story of a girl.

The dream of one day performing began in Grandpa's basement. I would make up silly dances and lip sync to Britney Spears in front of my dad and grandfather. She was my idol as a young girl, and I wanted so desperately to perform and be like her one day--a fearless, pop princess. That suddenly changed as a teenager when I steered more towards hard rock, emo and metal as my go-tos. My taste in music transposed when I was introduced to Flyleaf at 15 years old. The irony of that is I absolutely disliked any kind of rock music leading up to my period of adolescence. I referred to it as "noise," and I had no idea what the heck they were saying when they screamed. "So what was the point?" I asked myself. My parents would play the rock station in the car, and I would quickly put in my headphones, drowning out everything and getting in touch with my emo self, drifting into my own little world. I quickly found rock and metal music to be very therapeutic..the understanding of one's pain when unclean vocals (screams) would be incorporated into songs. I felt the pain they were feeling, and that is why I relate so well to metal music, and cling to that genre. 

During the nights spent alone in my room, I would write cheesy songs that would almost always have to rhyme, not thinking that anything would come from it. I daydreamed all day of pursuing music--writing lyrics of my favorite songs in multiple notebooks that remained unfinished. Throughout my years of living, music has always stuck with me--it just made sense. Music would bring me incredible joy, euphoria if you will, and that feeling never goes away. I just knew God was nudging me towards music being the purpose for my life. But how would I go about pursuing this love for music? I knew I could not do this alone. I had no idea how to write, how to play guitar, who to reach out to. God took care of that part when he brought the tools and the right people into my life to guide me in the right direction. 

The first step was to educate myself. I knew I had to learn about music theory or learn some kind of instrument if I wanted to write music. In the beginning of 2021, I reached out to Ryan Krysiak about learning the guitar. In just under a year, I quickly learned the guitar and the basics of music theory. I would use these tools to help me understand the dynamics of songwriting. I also reached out to the Maillets' to guide me with producing and recording songs for my first official EP that I will be releasing this year. I took what I learned from Ryan and combined with the Maillets', began writing and recording in their studio. 

Unfortunately, a music project like this can cost a big sum of money, but it can be worth it. So that is why I decided to start a campaign to help pay for costs, and most importantly, to deliver beautiful music to you that I hope you can relate to! Music is a universal language, and it touches everyone in a way nothing else can. 

The Impact

As a somewhat shy, soft spoken girl, it was difficult to find the confidence and the affirmation that this is what God wants for me. I know this is just a stepping stone to something beautiful and it's a test of faith to let go and let God reveal what he has planned for my life musically. This project will consist of personal stories that I've been wanting to share with the world, especially to those who use music as a way to cope with whatever seasons of life they are in. These songs are meant to encourage individuals who are struggling with their mental health and perhaps their spirituality, reminding them that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and that this too, shall pass. I am anticipating that these songs will have a positive impact on anyone who listens, whether it be those who may be struggling with depression, anxiety, feeling unloved or not worthy, coping with addiction, and who may be battling spiritual warfare. If you are reading this, YOU are worthy of beautiful things and a beautiful life. YOU are made for a purpose and a future. I hope these songs bring you hope and peace, knowing that you are not alone with your battles. 

How can you help?

Funding for production can be costly, so I will need all the help I can get! Don't feel obligated to donate if you are unable to. Spreading the word of the campaign is just as beneficial! You know what they say--word of mouth goes a long way! My goal for this project is to have a 4-5 track EP completed. This would include producing, recording, mixing and mastering the tracks. Funding from the campaign will go directly towards production, and possibly music videos for the completed tracks! Music videos are incredible because they create a visual for the song and I would absolutely love to create that for those who are more visual individuals (like me).

The biggest challenge is time. The campaign runs for a total of 45 days. If the goal is not met by the end date, no worries! Funding will still go towards production regardless. If that only means one or two songs will be covered, that is no problem at all! If the goal amount is met at the end of those 45 days, even better! Incredible news. I'm grateful for any donation and God is so good for this opportunity! 

Asking for help has been a challenge for me, especially because of my stubbornness. I've always been headstrong and refused any kind of help. God has put that on my heart for some time now--that I need to let go and accept help when it's necessary.  He doesn't want us to face things alone. 

You get a perk! You get a perk! Everyone gets a perk!

In return for your contribution to this project, I have a few surprises/perks for you! For each specific amount, individuals will receive a perk once the campaign has reached its end and production for the EP is finished in its entirety. This has to be one of my favorite parts of the campaign, because as a merch collector myself, I get excited for those that will receive the perks! Perks may include single downloads, t-shirts, hard copies, and bundle packages as well as others! 

Again, don't feel like you have to give. I'm grateful regardless, for any kind of support and awareness given towards this campaign. I'm grateful to be at this point in my life to be able to share experiences put into songs that people can relate to--to be able to touch someone through music is just so powerful. That is the true meaning of music. 

So let's do the dang thing!